A letter you might need to read SOONER rather than later
Also this is why I love you, I thought you should know.
Hello my caring friend,
I hope you had a good week since we last met on this page and platform. I hope you learned something of value and felt a river of joy run through you, at least once. I hope one thing happened that you will remember forever, because it changed you, because it opened you up. I hope you had one small surprise that rocked your day and got clarification on at least one of the things that your mind relentlessly carries.
I hope you’re alright and feeling seen, heard and supported. If only by the Love that beats your heart, if only by the Earth which gives you as much oxygen as you can accept, inhale, receive… at any given time. I hope the parts of you that feel tenderized are finding their way to the well of Soul energy that is the essence of our lives.
Today I wanted to write you a love letter. Because we all need one. And because yes, of course, I can love you without knowing you, love is unconditional.
I love you because you are, not because of this or because of that. I love you because you’re here, right now and that is the only place we can ever be, all that truly matters, the only part of this experience that actually still and already exists. I love you.
I love that part of you that you don’t think you can share with any time. That part that feels horrendous waves of shame, and that is hiding below the surface of all you tell yourself to get through it all. That part of you that thinks that “if she knew… if she knew that about me” I would for sure stop loving you. But I wouldn’t… because I love you.
I love that part of you that relies on blame and judgment to make sense of the world and to feel just a tiny bit safer today. That part that cannot see yet that defense is the first act of war, because no one teaches us that and nearly everybody believes the opposite.
I love that part of you that is still terrified of the dark corners of the closet but doesn’t feel allowed to share this with anyone. People would laugh. People would leave. People would judge. That part is sure of it, so it makes sense.
I love that part of you that thinks it’s everybody else’s fault and the part of you that is resenting the mushiness of what I write to you and believe.
I love that part of you that hates, that part that learned that hate is the antithesis of love and not a desperate cry for it.
I love that part of you that keeps you awake at night because it doesn’t think it’s reasonable for you to fall asleep just yet. There might be a monster under the bed. There might be a fire in our hearts. It’s safer to worry than to be sorry that part thinks—not realizing that worry cannot get us anywhere, or that feeling sorry is part of how we learn the ways which prevent us from feeling sorry again.
I love that part of you that is terrified of not being enough, while shining the brightest light for our eyes' delight. I love that part of you that thinks you’re way too much, trying to protect you from those who can’t handle how beautiful and amazing you are.
I love that part of you that cannot understand how someone would do what they just did and forgets that the answer to other people’s humanness is found by acknowledging, by accepting, by celebrating our own.
I love that part of you that lets someone else mistreat you at times because of how scared that part is that it might be love after all, because it might be worth giving it just one more try… because, also—if we’re being truly honest here—it just hurts so damn much to say goodbye.
I love that part of you that hides what it truly means because that might not sound acceptable to the outside world—and at times, it feels like the outside world is all we have.
I love that part of you that stole something one day because it couldn’t trust that we are all worthy to receive what we need, just because we are. Because that part couldn’t see that it is part of the whole, and therefore unbelievably worthy… Inherently. Entirely. Always. Forever. Worthy.
I love that part of you that loves this world and cares for it the best it can. I love that part of you that laughs from the center of your core and into the Heavens, showing us what it means to be alive.
I love that part of you that speaks up when it feels right and important, and that shares its truth that we can all learn so much from. I love that part of you that is wise, compassionate, curious and honest, that everlasting part that is who you truly are.
I love your body that hosts you, nurtures you, protects you and serves you the best it can, from morning till night, from dusk till dawn, from your first day on Earth to the last.
I love your tender opened eyes and I love them when they close to check in with what’s inside or to find some respite in Morpheus’ arms. I love your intelligence and how it studies, understands and betters the world we share. I love your beating heart, singing in your chest the most beautiful song one could ever hope for. I love your lungs that allow you to take it all in and to take it all out. I love your gut that allows you to know what feels good, digestible, nourishing and right—and sometimes even more importantly, what is truly not. I love your hands that can heal all there is with their touch, if they only allow the magic they carry to flow out. I love your voice, the sounds it promises and the silence it decorates. I love your lips who can kiss and soothe and open or close, depending on what’s needed. I love your humanity, that soul quality that emanates from every inch of your being. I love you.
Simply. Wholeheartedly.
Body and soul. Thoughts and feelings.
The so-called good, the so-called bad, please never edit out any of it.
I love you. Humbly. Hopefully. Inspired and fascinated. Intrigued and relieved.
I love you—and I know that this love I feel in me is in you too, and that’s all that matters to me.
Care.check:
Read this letter out loud, to yourself, to the mirror—if you feel that it won’t be too vulnerable or too early for the armor you carry.
Read it to someone you love and who needs to hear it.
Share it with someone you don’t know and bathe in the impact Love can have on our entire experience, when we love unconditionally.
With kindness, love and light–because I truly believe they’re our most sacred offering to this world.
Always,
leo